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Too Young

10/9/2014

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My paternal grandfather died in his early 50's when I was three month old. We never talked about death, but somehow I always knew my dad thought he would die young as well. When I was a kid, 50 seemed very old, so it never worried me.

When I married and had children, I vaguely thought I might die young; leave my kids without a mom. I tried not to think about it-made me sad for them. The children grew up, I didn't die and leave them without a mom, and my dad lived to be 91.

I've made the statement that I always thought I'd die young, but it's too late for that now. However, as I get older, I realize young isn't so cut and dried. Doesn't have to be 20's, 30's or 40's.

I recently found out that a childhood friend and classmate has terminal cancer. She was always so fun and full of life, friendly and kind. She's too young. She should have more time.

I've only seen her a few times over the years, but I like knowing she's in the world. I won't be happy when she's not.
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Traceyr
10/9/2014 08:15:34 am

I often used to think of the same thing. Especially when I was diagnosed with cancer. I knew in my heart though that my son's father would always remind my son of who I was. I would live on through stories told. It didn't lessen the pain I felt when I thought of me not being there for my son though. Now that I know his dad has a wife that loves my son as her own, I am even at more peace. I don't want to die anytime soon, but I know that if I should that between the 2 of them my son will be raised right. Its not the loss of my own life that I think about when I think of death. It is the little boy that will live on without me.

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    Mama Lee Rotten

    I am a writer living in Mt. Vernon, Ohio. I enjoy thrift shopping, working in the garden, singing karaoke and spending time with my children and grandchildren. I have only recently started writing, and one of my poems, "Song 4 You" has already been adapted to music by my son, David Lee Rotten (of Naked Highway), and will be released in early 2015 on his debut solo album/video project Bound.  

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